kotretan

my friend’s wife, once said, that i’m a "master" of feeling manipulation.
she also said that, sadly, the object of my mastery is my own feeling.

a new friend of mine, a girl, said that my feeling has either dead or gone.
"you act like a cyborg which has no heart; even the terminator has more feeling than you".

am i wrong if i feel nothing?
am i wrong if for me it’s feels just like executing some procedure in my daily work?

or … should i pretend to be sad?
or … should i crying, yelling, frustrated and so on?

i am i … i’m not you, not he, not she
i’m just me, with my way of thinking and feeling

It’s over.
My plan for marriage next year had finally ended yesterday.
I’m "single" again now, no more "in a relationship" or even "it’s complicated" status in fs.